My Happiness

I am not the type of person showing interest in things around me, nor the new fashions that are sold in the market.

It was in my childhood age that I really like the doll when I and my mother just pass a nearby store; I know she still has money so I ask her to buy me the doll because it was talking. I never had a brand new doll all are second hand from my older sisters. All I want that time was a brand new bought just for me. Mother was insisting that we don’t have money to buy the dolls so I cried and cried until we got home. When my father saw me crying and because it was too loud he get a piece of midribs and told me to stop or else I will be punished with the midribs that going to hit me. Because of being hard headed I did not stop, knowing that my father will not really hit me.  So, in short I was kneeling the half day and was hit with the midribs many times.

Few days passed my mother surprised me with a gift it was my birthday, I opened it and saw the doll I wanted her to buy for me. Honestly I thanked her but my desire of having the doll was gone. Never had I felt excitement or happiness because at last I have it.

Sometimes I think not the material things that could make us happy.

When my father died I felt so guilty when he told me He was so sorry that he doesn’t have wealth for us to inherit. He said that all of us his sons and daughter are the special gifts that He has in His life and the one that He cherished most. Even if He lived poor He is willing to sacrifice himself just to make us happy. He still remember the thing in my childhood when he hit me that piece of midribs, and that it makes him to ask forgiveness  as he said he did it knowingly that I am still a child and not fully understood the life we had. I, being a hard headed did not exempt it for me to cry ,that time I feel so sad , my father still in his mind those sad memories, in his dying situation He still reminiscing those things that really makes me burst out my tears and really cried not because I pity myself but for my father. He was thinking He did not do the best part as a Father to us. I told Him He was a great Father I never thought of unfairly things he did in our lives.

Material things are not the true happiness but the love and affection we have for our loved ones and that makes us great.